For the first time i think i'm a rebellious person. No matter how much people advise me not to challenge my seniors/explain myself, i can't help but do it. Especially on so many occasions when i know i'm right, to the extent that i can bring out my manual and point out to them. But sigh. With all my heart, i sincerely feel that people of my job loves face (full of pride). They buy themselves LVs and Chanels, dine in expensive restaurants and smear $200 cream on their faces. They then like to bring others down to make themselves feel good, just because they can.
Doesn't it sound like a fabulous life?
I hope i won't become like that in future.
On my first solo, a very nice colleague was so worried about me, he kept asking me "
you ok? don't cry ok?" hahaha and i said "
what's there to cry about. i'm not that type to cry during work". But i am angry at myself at times for not being prepared and focused enough to minimize chances of being picked on. This was reinforced by my boss on my way back today. She said "
if you don't give your 100%, as a junior people will sure pick on you. don't give them the chance".
I try my best.
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